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Bye Bye Dear Vacation

8 Aug

Hello~~ : )

How long I don’t write here! The lack of internet  in my house sucks. That’s a rubbish! : /  But ok, I can enjoy my computer course classes and post something. Some funny moments passed without I write them here. I will do it later, ok? Let’s go to the news!

I’m in my computer course again, hiding this post from my teacher hehe Last weekend was too funny, I was at my best friend’s house, her name is ****** (I don’t have her permission to say her name here, sorry!)

We went to the shopping and she asked her boyfriend to go with us. Ok, I definitely don’t like to be a nuisance for them, but she insisted… well, it was her role as a friend insist and promise that I would not be a nuisance because she won’t be kissing him all the time leaving me on the sidelines.

But I thought that was better if I called another friend to go with us, then I would not be alone. I called to him and he promise he will be there on time. He was rehearsing with his rock band and he told me that if he is late, I will have to forgive him. But when we arrive on the shopping, he called to my friend’s cell phone telling that he would not go to the shopping anymore. I was about to kill him via cell phone. But it was impossible with so many people talking at the same time. WTF

Ok, we walked a little and when we went upstairs and she hugged her boyfriend, who I didn’t know yet. We talked and walked a lot around the shopping, because we gave up to go the movie inside of the shopping because of the huge queue waiting to watch Harry Potter anxiously. I didn’t watch Harry Potter 7 part 1, yet, so I wasn’t exactly anxious to watch a movie there that day. I leave them alone and walk around alone. When we met again, we walked more and more. Ok, it is too weird just walk and walk. But it was too funny because I talked a lot with her boyfriend, because he supports the same soccer team I support. Then we just walked a lot and when we was absolutely tired and hungry we stopped and for our lucky my uncle works on a restaurant there, my best friend ***** already knew that. My uncle really liked to pay a snack for us, so that will be not a problem and we will save money to do something after we eat. But the great problem was her boyfriend who was unknown for my uncle and it will be very weird if a boyfriend goes out with his girl without pay anything for her. And we were really ashamed to let my uncle pay a snack for the three of us.

So they went out of the shopping to eat and I stayed at my uncle’s work place. As I said he paid to me, if I say “No, uncle. I will pay it!” he will say “Don’t bother me! I am working and I already paid!” He’s so nice! I ate and at the same time I was watching a soccer match on the food court of the shopping. I was alone as I thought I would be. But be alone for a long time is a crime. They was too late and I was really mad for be waiting a lot for them. I went downstairs when the waiter asked me if I wanted to eat something else, probably another person wanted to sit there. And it was just a person, but a family.

Ok, be patient Carol! I went downstairs as I said (the shopping has three floors, the third floor is where the movies are), and didn’t saw them. I remembered that my best friend didn’t take her purse and her cell phone was in my purse (she lent me her purse, oh, well…) and I called to her boyfriend. They said me that they were arriving, but they were laying one more time. I was suffering waiting a lot for them; I really didn’t want to get lost from them on that huge shopping.  So I decide to call him again and they said that they were arriving. I entered in a store to see some jewelry, they were beautiful. But they arrived and my entertainment ended again. Her boyfriend and I talked a lot about soccer again, and my friend was getting mad with me, but not for real. She told me that if I still her boyfriend I am a dead single girl. But I wasn’t trying to still her boyfriend, he’s so cute but I think I’m taller than him… Oh, come on! I’m a good friend ok!!

And for some coincidence, the soccer team that her boyfriend and I support was about to play a beautiful match against a southern team called Flamengo. But the huge problem was: the match will be transmitted on a TV inside of an expensive restaurant. I talked with the waiter and asked if was ok if we enter and just watch the match. Of course she said “no”. Then, I got the menu which was on the balcony and read it. The only thing that wasn’t expensive was a Milk Shake, available only in Chocolate and Strawberry. I hate strawberry ice cream!! The waiter told me that the ice cream wasn’t too good to be used to make milk shake. But I didn’t want to be standing outside of the restaurant, like some people intended to do. I talked with my friend and decided to buy two milk shakes. We entered, I was so happy!! “I will watch the match now!!” I thought. As the waiter said the milk shake was awful and just my friend who likes strawberry ice cream, she was the lucky girl there, because there was only strawberry milk shake on sail. Oh my Dear God, I had to accept it and tried to drink as much as I could. It was terrible, I was horrified with how terrible it tasted. Low quality milk shake sucks. But I was still happy because of the soccer match. Thanks to the milk shake I was there, and then I insisted in drink it, because it was a little expensive too. Later, when my favorite team was about to score I crumpled the cup making the liquid leak and soil the table. There was a rich environment there. So, I looked around me and tried to disguise the mess.

We were all having fun there. Ok, just her boyfriend and me, because she doesn’t like soccer. She probably was bored. She laughed when a guy celebrated with his friend when the adversary team made a score and she looked at me. We use to say that if the opposing team makes a score, they made the goal of honor of them, and then our team could do a lot of goals without think in the other team feelings. Think in the other team feelings is just for the sensitive people. I am not one of them.

I protested against that guy’s attitude and my friend and her boyfriend asked to me don’t do that, but I am so stubborn and at least one of them knows this. I continued to protest and say something to protect my team. That’s too fool sometimes, but it is a normal thing when we are watching a match and supporting your team. As I said before, it was impossible to me drink such horrible milk shake like that, and the first time of the soccer match finished. Temporary result: Flamengo 1 x 0 Ceara. Obviously, I am a supporter of Ceara Sporting Club.

We paid and got out of there. Thank you God! I was pretending to drink that trash called strawberry milk shake. My friend told me that it would be better if we had bought the Burger King’s milk shake. But it was too late to say something, right? We went downstairs because the shopping was about to close. Her boyfriend had to go home and we stayed in the front of the shopping waiting for her dad. Her dad is a taxi driver, we like to joke saying that we are too rich to catch a bus, and we are going home by taxi, ok? Hahahahaha

We went home and stayed awake until two a.m. In despite of the milk shake everything was normal. Oh, I almost forgot to say that the match finished with the score of Flamengo 1 x 1 Ceara. That was so cool when we were in front of the shopping and a man passed by saying to another man that Ceara had made a goal, tying the game. Yahoo, it was great because the match wasn’t in my city and my team gained more points on the Brazilian championship. I screamed happier than ever, my friend saying “Stop it!” one more time. It was too funny to pay attention on her. Hahahahaha

But you know, that friends are like that, don’t minding what is different on us. There are so funny things that happen with us. One of them is the day when I at her house and I signed up in Poupée Girl. She also did but she doesn’t speak or write in English. I said “Well, we have our best friend: Translate Google”. She laughed a lot and said that one phrase was enough. When we invite a friend we have to send a message talking about you or just say “Hello, Let’s be friends!”. Then, I teached her this phrase: “Hello, I’m *****. Let’s be Poupée friends! Nice too meet you!!” Since then when we remember this phrase we start to laugh until we get breathless. HEHE  Sometime we call each other and she answer, she doesn’t say “hello” as usual, but the phrase. hahahaha Imagine you asnwering a call and a person say “Hello, I’m ******. Let’s be Poupée friends! Nice too meet you!!”.

Ah, it is not funny/comic. Ok, it is funny between me and her. Everyone has a best friend and something that just your friend and you understand. It’s normal. hehe And when we are in crowded place and remember something that happened at school and start to laugh hysterically. That’s so cool! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

End of the day!

Kisses : )



20 Jul

Music: Beast ~ SHOCK

Mood: Satisfied

Hello Dears! : )

I was reading some blogs and one thing attracted my attention:

She is now employed as a writer for a “non-fiction project”. She said she was hired because her boss knew of her blog.

Xiaxue is really brave writing her life with no fear of what she put there. I have to admire her because of this. It’s pitiful how people want to damage bloggers just because they aren’t afraid to share their life with the world, however everyone have your own life so take care of yours you freaking pitiful critics! But be a blogger can be lucrative and as everything in this world this hobby have to sides.

Be a blogger is becoming a profession, but to do it people have to be corageous and be careful like know about media law. I know that if you’re writing about what you’re thinking and your skills and daylife you can put whatever you want, it will depends on each person’s personalities. I don’t think that the famous bloggers criated a cover life just to be success, because I don’t know them… but, who knows?

We can’t judge people just because they’re wearing ridiculous clothes… ok, we can do it! Blogger’s life are just like our mind being shared to people you meet everyday and everytime. So don’t be jealous just because I’ll be famous and you won’t. What I want to say is: If you want to have a successful blog just be yourself and like yourself, because people will try to low you, will try to see you sad… And it isn’t a bad thing say that you’re the best, because everyone say that and if you don’t think like this so you really think like a loser. Be optimist and like yourself, say that you’re the best and do your best.

If you don’t like yourself first, who will do it? Your parents? Ok, they love you, but when you get out of you parent’s house? Don’t you want to be independent?

Don’t say stupid things. First you have to study about what you’ll say, that’s a fact! I’m stupid for writing this obvious point! But remember that to be employed you cannot be registered on social network that can compromise your career or your employee relationship with your boss. That’s another fact!


  • I’m a bitch!
  • I like sexual positions. […] I like pain […]
  • I hate my boss and my husband. They’re a couple of shit!
  • Fuck you, fuck the guy over there, fuck everything!

These things are too rude and proove that you are stupid/idiot/….bitch.

I saw some news about what your child is writing on internet. Ok, that can be good, if the daughter didn’t want to say that she fell in love with a boy who is 12 years older to her parents, they will keep updated about her life reading the blog… That’s so unreal even to just imagine.

Don’t insult or show some prooves about that famous person’s life if you know that you can be prossessed by his/her manager. If you do it, so you will have to be prepared to the consequences. Study law is the first thing you’ll  have to do! Have a lucrative blog is so important? YES, it is. Because you don’t want to spend your time just writing and gliggle about something that happened and stay like this for years and when it’s over and you feel bored of it, just delete the blog with many years of time on the rubbish. Go ahead and you will win a dumb ass award! It’s clear that I won’t be like this forever and I think that the majority of people think the same.

Unfortunelly, brazilian bloggers don’t think like this for marjority, because thay write a lot of tips and How-to-do-something posts. They like more theory than practice. Like advertise some good products but don’t sell them. And american people are good on selling things, even they are second hand products, like eBay merchandise. I read this on a brazilian magazine.

However, Brazil is in crisis and nobody wants to protest, it’s like brazilian people just care about themselves when they’re speaking to each other rather than go to the media and say their opinion out loud and try to change the current situation of curruption and sensacionalism by the important ministers and politicians. We have to use the media for intelligent things. I don’t care if Xuxa is crying because her fans are crying too, or if Justin Bieber is kissing another girls. I care about out future and our rights in a country which since its discovery lies to its own people, damage the people who is working and increasing the labor quality of this country. Even in soccer matches there isn’t pure brazilians players there anymore, just a little quantity that will be living in Europe or in another country soon. Where are the brazilian soccer players to fight for the victory. Where’s the population to fight for their own rights?

So, even bloggers can be damaged by this, because there are so many injustices in this world and the media is protecting the powerful men and consequently it is being held up by liars. We can tell the full 100% of the truth…  We can talk a lot but the problems won’t be solved because my blog is so little and poor for fight with the rich politicians’ arguments which are all cliché words based on cliché promises.

But, see, we can still have fun making new friends and talking about our lives. We can blog witout forget about what is important for us. If you agree with what I said, click on the like buttom on the bottom of the page. At least I’m so relieved for say what I think and satisfied for you be reading this post.

**** Thank you & kisses ****

Back to First Level

12 Jul

Listening: DBSK/Why Did I Fall In Love With You   

Mood: Hopeful

Oooooh right! writing about some tragedies in my life and how I like them. I’m not crazy at all, but there are mistakes which help you, we just learn with them, that’s how life works. Like yesterday: my father registered me on a course in the beginning of the year and some study schedule changed and my father had to regiter me on a new schedule of the course. I was studying upper level and with the new schedule I have to begin from the first level again. WTF? No, no, no. Now I can access the internet there almost all the time, because I know all the subjects already. Yesterday started my “back to first level” episodes.

You can say “What idiot” and “Don’t you have computer in your house?”, but actually it wasn’t my fault. It’s courses’ fault because there wasn’t any vacancy with the same level I was doing. Unfortunelly, I have to do the same exams I did last semester and listen my teacher talk about the same things he did in the last months. And the schedule is more satisfactory because I have to go there just one day a week. And my classes are from 1:30-4:30 p.m. It’s long but we don’t realize the time passing, it passes so fast when we’re in front of a computer.

When I got in the class and saw the same subjects listed on the board, I said WTF! But when I sit down and turned my computer on I thought that what was happening with me was more than a crazy view of life, was like a second chance. I’m not talking about improve my grades, because I was the top of the class, I am talking about someone!! ; ) There’s someone there who I admire and want him to talk with me. I encoureged myself a lot of times, when he was sitting by my side, when he opened the door for me… I don’t him very well, he never talked with me… that’s a little patetic, but this is happening with a lot of people too. It’s normal when someone is admiring other person search for some information about him/her. I have to say that I hadn’t seached anything until now. And I don’t intend to do this, because I prefer ‘ya know’ listen more about him from his mouth or see with my own eyes.

I can say that I don’t even know what course his doing there and this type of information it’s easy to know, right? Because It’s a small course…. I don’t know! I don’t have to think about it all the time. That’s like another sad episode of my life… I don’t even know his name. That’s normal, thinking that I only know him by sight. But I need some advices of what I have to do now. This occured in my mind when I was watching Densha Otoko, but I am not a nerd who is addicted with anime characters or an otaku girl. I don’t like anything axaggeratedly. I have never liked something as fanatic and my only idols are my parents. That’s how the life have to be for me, because I judge as a super idiot someone who cries just because a famous person touched her hand.

But there’s something else on the air: there’s someone liking me in the other course, I may say, in the english course. He is so wise, but not a nerd (I don’t have any prejudice with nerd people, in Brazil it’s a good thing because this person will be rich and happy with no regrets), he’s good looking, but not handsome. He’s gentle, quite and don’t speak so much. Something that is positive is that he supports the same soccer team which I support and he is taking part of a high-level course in a prestigious university in my city. It’s kinda perfect, but I feel nothing for him. That’s really worring… >.<

But I don’t care about this anymore, last week ok! I was worring about this, but now? No, no, no! I just want to delete most of bad or worrying things in my mind. What about now? I don’t know. I’ll just let it happen…. If I have more new, I’ll post them here for sure.

Oh, yeah! I didn’t metion anything about the first guy, the guy of my computer classes. He’s tall and has brown hair almost blond, he’s gentle and seems that he likes anime and games. He’s cute, sometimes handsome (I don’t know how to explain why or how) and he’s really good with computers.

That’s all I know about him now… almost nothing LOLOLOLOL

I have to go now!! So love, smile and sing as much as you can. That’s good for your health and with a good shape.

P.S.: The music on the top of the page has no relation with this post or my feelings. I didn’t fall in love with anyone yet, ok? I just admire him, admire! I found this music the day before yesterday because my cousin likes a lot DBSK and gave me a  post tolding me to listen their music, ok?

kisses and see ya~! ; )

Hello world!

11 Jul

Oh, ok! As you can see that’s my first post here and my objective of doing this blog is just for training my english with someone else…. ok, I’m kidding!! LOL I won’t use you, right? Stopping kidding now, or you will start to hate me, that’s a lifestyle blog and I’ll use it asa diary. If you think your life is a mess, oh! Don’t ask about mine, ok? It’s embarassing. But I thought a lot and I had a conclusion that surprised me a little: I’ll write about my daylife on a blog and post it to the whole world read it…. Oh well, I don’t know if everybody is reading it, it’s a new blog. The main objective here is make new friends and enjoy the life the way it is.

“I have to love my life” is a phrase that I hate, because we have just onelife, oh ok, for the Catolic and Evangelic people this is a fact. So, we have to live our lives don’t worring about the evil on the world. Don’t worry about your mistakes, because we always learn with them. And like all magic we know from fairy tales, has a collateral effect.

“I love my life.” is the phrase that I love the most, of course. (And you got it in the last paragraph. Sorry, I’m just enphasizing my text.)  Today is the day of some surprises, and one of them is that my English teacher is preparing us to ENEM too. (Oh, sorry. You don’t know ENEM. It’s a vestibular here in Brazil. It’s a bit complicated talk about it, because some students like this new sistem, and others want the traditional exam type, with two fases and more difficult. You may say that the last group is crazy, but they’re not and I’ll explain why! We had been prepared to do the difficult and traditional method our whole life, and my class was the guinea pig to do ENEM. And the worst, we had just one year to prepare for it, and took almost two months to get the supplies and start to study for real. That’s a real tragedy and frustrating. Guess what? We didn’t give up. Almost all of my class is in universty. So, I have a conclusion for this as a moral of the history: Don’t give up, even if the time you have to plan and fight for it is short.

Repeat with me: “I’m prepared, I’ll succeed!”. “Breath slowly, inspiration and expiration…” I saw this reading the TOEFL preparing book. LOL So, it’s prooved that’s not a section of hypnosis. I swear!! LOL I passed in vestibular too, but I didn’t the registration to enter to university, I’m so stupiiiiid!! Moral of my absurd story: I passed in vestibular but I’m not in a university WTF I’m so idiot you can say this all the timje, but the best thing in me is that I don’t give up, and I promiss to myself and you, dear bloggers and readers, that I’ll enter in a university this time!! I won’t give up!! I PROMISE!! And I don’t want a political career, then I’m not lying LOL

After talking about some crisis in my life I really have positive things to share with you. So, I’ll post it later, because my class finished and I have to go home now!

Kisses and a good Carpe Diem LOLLOLOLOLOLOL