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Back to First Level

12 Jul

Listening: DBSK/Why Did I Fall In Love With You   

Mood: Hopeful

Oooooh right! writing about some tragedies in my life and how I like them. I’m not crazy at all, but there are mistakes which help you, we just learn with them, that’s how life works. Like yesterday: my father registered me on a course in the beginning of the year and some study schedule changed and my father had to regiter me on a new schedule of the course. I was studying upper level and with the new schedule I have to begin from the first level again. WTF? No, no, no. Now I can access the internet there almost all the time, because I know all the subjects already. Yesterday started my “back to first level” episodes.

You can say “What idiot” and “Don’t you have computer in your house?”, but actually it wasn’t my fault. It’s courses’ fault because there wasn’t any vacancy with the same level I was doing. Unfortunelly, I have to do the same exams I did last semester and listen my teacher talk about the same things he did in the last months. And the schedule is more satisfactory because I have to go there just one day a week. And my classes are from 1:30-4:30 p.m. It’s long but we don’t realize the time passing, it passes so fast when we’re in front of a computer.

When I got in the class and saw the same subjects listed on the board, I said WTF! But when I sit down and turned my computer on I thought that what was happening with me was more than a crazy view of life, was like a second chance. I’m not talking about improve my grades, because I was the top of the class, I am talking about someone!! ; ) There’s someone there who I admire and want him to talk with me. I encoureged myself a lot of times, when he was sitting by my side, when he opened the door for me… I don’t him very well, he never talked with me… that’s a little patetic, but this is happening with a lot of people too. It’s normal when someone is admiring other person search for some information about him/her. I have to say that I hadn’t seached anything until now. And I don’t intend to do this, because I prefer ‘ya know’ listen more about him from his mouth or see with my own eyes.

I can say that I don’t even know what course his doing there and this type of information it’s easy to know, right? Because It’s a small course…. I don’t know! I don’t have to think about it all the time. That’s like another sad episode of my life… I don’t even know his name. That’s normal, thinking that I only know him by sight. But I need some advices of what I have to do now. This occured in my mind when I was watching Densha Otoko, but I am not a nerd who is addicted with anime characters or an otaku girl. I don’t like anything axaggeratedly. I have never liked something as fanatic and my only idols are my parents. That’s how the life have to be for me, because I judge as a super idiot someone who cries just because a famous person touched her hand.

But there’s something else on the air: there’s someone liking me in the other course, I may say, in the english course. He is so wise, but not a nerd (I don’t have any prejudice with nerd people, in Brazil it’s a good thing because this person will be rich and happy with no regrets), he’s good looking, but not handsome. He’s gentle, quite and don’t speak so much. Something that is positive is that he supports the same soccer team which I support and he is taking part of a high-level course in a prestigious university in my city. It’s kinda perfect, but I feel nothing for him. That’s really worring… >.<

But I don’t care about this anymore, last week ok! I was worring about this, but now? No, no, no! I just want to delete most of bad or worrying things in my mind. What about now? I don’t know. I’ll just let it happen…. If I have more new, I’ll post them here for sure.

Oh, yeah! I didn’t metion anything about the first guy, the guy of my computer classes. He’s tall and has brown hair almost blond, he’s gentle and seems that he likes anime and games. He’s cute, sometimes handsome (I don’t know how to explain why or how) and he’s really good with computers.

That’s all I know about him now… almost nothing LOLOLOLOL

I have to go now!! So love, smile and sing as much as you can. That’s good for your health and with a good shape.

P.S.: The music on the top of the page has no relation with this post or my feelings. I didn’t fall in love with anyone yet, ok? I just admire him, admire! I found this music the day before yesterday because my cousin likes a lot DBSK and gave me a  post tolding me to listen their music, ok?

kisses and see ya~! ; )

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